I finished school in 1998. I was an average student—not particularly ambitious, competitive, or driven.
To be honest, I didn’t think much about my career. I simply allowed my parents to make most of the decisions for me.
After school, I stayed in Kerala for a year and prepared for the engineering entrance exams. I didn’t clear them, so I returned to Delhi.
My parents then suggested that I enroll in IGNOU’s Bachelor of Information Technology program. I joined, and after much struggle, eventually completed the degree.
Later, in 2004, IIT introduced an all-India entrance exam for the Master of Computer Applications (MCA) program. I wrote the exam, scored a good percentile, and got admission into Jamia Hamdard University in Delhi.
But once I entered the program, I quickly realized something wasn’t right.
I was deeply uninterested in the subjects. I struggled academically and started failing papers. At one point, I was so bored during an exam that I nearly fell asleep while writing it.
Around that same time, however, I had begun teaching myself graphic and web design. And for the first time, I discovered something I genuinely enjoyed doing.
I Came to My Senses
There were days when I would leave home pretending to go to college, but instead I would end up sitting alone at Connaught Place or India Gate, thinking deeply about my life.
I was 26 years old, still living at home, and I felt like I had wasted years drifting aimlessly.
I felt like the black sheep of the family.
I hated the feeling that I had wasted my parents’ money and time. Deep down, I knew I had not taken responsibility for my life. I had allowed time to slip away while depending on others to decide my future.
Eventually, something inside me woke up.
I realized I had to stop drifting and start taking ownership of my life before it was too late.
I was determined to change.
But I also knew I needed help.
God Steps In
By then, I had already started growing in my friendship with God, but I still wasn’t involving Him in many practical areas of my life. I often left important decisions to other people.
So I began sincerely seeking God for direction.
One day, I came across a verse in the Bible where God says:
“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with My eye upon you.”
I held onto those words and asked God to guide me.
At that stage, I didn’t have a mentor or anyone I felt comfortable opening up to. I carried frustration, confusion, and fear internally.
But I realized something powerful:
I could speak honestly to God.
Heart to heart.
And one night, I poured everything out before Him.
I said:
“God, I’ve made mistakes. I’m not where I could have been. I feel like I’ve wasted years of my life. It feels like it’s over for me.”
Then suddenly, I sensed God speak clearly into my heart:
“Did I say it’s over? It’s not over until I say it’s over.”
The moment those words hit my heart, something changed inside me.
I felt supernatural peace, hope, and confidence rise within me. That single sentence completely shifted my perspective. I suddenly knew God was not finished with my story.
Dropping Out
At the time, I was already considering leaving college. But I wanted to be sure I wasn’t making a foolish emotional decision.
So I asked God directly:
“If I leave college, will things be okay?”
And again, I sensed Him respond:
“Leave college. It will be fine.”
Along with those words came deep reassurance and peace.
In December 2005, I told my mother I was dropping out of college.
She was somewhat understanding.
My father, however, was furious.
At that time, my sister’s wedding was approaching in February 2006, so the family was occupied with wedding preparations. That gave me a little breathing room while I waited and sought God about what to do next.
Then God spoke something even more unexpected to me:
“You will get married within a year.”
“No One Will Marry You”
At my sister’s wedding in Kerala, some relatives questioned my decision to drop out of college. They told me I had made a foolish mistake and that no one would marry someone unemployed and directionless.
But I replied confidently:
“I’m going to get married within a year. And if it happens in 2006, it will be a miracle.”
At that moment, I hadn’t even met my future wife.
I had no job.
No income.
No plan.
But I said those words because deep inside, I believed what God had spoken to me.
After the wedding, I spent the next few months at home waiting, praying, and seeking direction. Those months were difficult. I could feel the pressure and disappointment around me building steadily.
Meeting My Wife
In April 2006, I felt strongly led by the Holy Spirit to do a 21-day fast.
I had never done anything like that before.
During the fast, I skipped breakfast and lunch and spent intentional time praying and seeking God for three things:
A new church community
My future wife
Clarity about my career
Then in June 2006, I joined a new church community.
A week or two later, at a youth meeting, I noticed a girl. We looked at each other and smiled.
Since I was new to the church, I didn’t want people thinking I had come there for the wrong reasons. So I decided not to make the first move.
About four weeks later, after a Sunday service, she came and introduced herself to me.
We spoke for nearly two hours.
Then she asked me something unexpected:
“Would you like to go out for coffee sometime?”
Things moved quickly after that.
There was such an immediate connection between us that both of us sensed God had orchestrated this meeting.
The next evening, I went for a walk under a beautiful moonlit sky with a cool breeze blowing. The atmosphere felt almost surreal.
I texted her.
After exchanging a few messages, she wrote:
“Wish I was there beside you, holding your hand.”
That night, we confessed our feelings for each other.
Fixing the Wedding Date Before Having a Career
Soon after, I told my parents:
“I found the girl I’m going to marry. Let’s fix the engagement and wedding dates.”
My parents thought I had lost my mind.
But despite their hesitation, the engagement was scheduled for September 2006 and the wedding for December 2006.
Exactly as God had spoken.
But there was still one huge problem:
I didn’t have a stable career or income.
So I asked God:
“Lord, I’m getting married… but I don’t even have savings or financial security. What do I do now?”
Then I sensed God say:
“Step into graphic and web design as a freelancer.”
I immediately said:
“But who will give me projects? I’m inexperienced and I don’t even have a portfolio.”
Then came the response that changed everything:
“I created the heavens and the earth. Do you think it is difficult for Me to open projects for you?”
“Step into graphic and web design by faith, and I will open doors for you.”
Those words filled me with confidence.
Two weeks later, I received my very first website project—from Chennai.
A few weeks after that, I landed another project from the United States through someone at church. Interestingly, that client had apparently been searching for a web designer for nearly a year.
It was a high-budget project.
And remarkably, they hired me without asking for a portfolio.
Before my wedding even took place, they entrusted me with a second project.
Not bad for someone just starting out.
God Was Thinking Ahead
For the next nine years, God consistently opened doors for me as a freelancer.
Then eventually, I sensed Him leading me into a completely different season.
I felt God saying it was time to transition from freelancing into working for a startup company as an employee.
I joined that company and spent the next five years there.
Looking back now, I can clearly see that this transition was strategic and timely. God was positioning me for future seasons I could not yet see.
That’s something I’ve learned about God:
He is always thinking ahead.
It’s Not Over Until God Says So
Jesus said that when we seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, everything else we need will be added to us.
So often we reverse that order—we chase security first and seek God later—and end up exhausted and anxious.
But one conversation with God can completely change the direction of a person’s life.
When God told me, “It’s not over until I say it’s over,” what I believe He was really saying was this:
“Don’t ever write yourself off. I will have the final word over your life.”
“No matter how delayed, broken, confused, or hopeless things may appear, I am still God. I created you. Nothing is too difficult for Me. I can turn things around.”
Those words carried me through one of the most uncertain seasons of my life.
God is relational.
He speaks.
He guides.
Sometimes His guidance is practical. Sometimes it is disruptive. At times, He may even lead us in ways that seem risky, unreasonable, or illogical to others.
And that requires trust.
It requires believing God’s voice more than fear, public opinion, or visible circumstances.
So if you find yourself in a difficult place today, don’t lose hope.
Trust God.
Talk to Him honestly.
Listen for His voice.
And remember:
It’s not over until He says it’s over.